- Dec 17, 2020
- Gender Pronouns
- She, Her, Hers, Herself
- Gender Identity
Wow that’s a days job 8 hrs !Well, it's 6 days since my FFS. I had 8 hours of surgery but I have to wait a couple of months for my rhinoplasty to complete the transformation, although I expect less obvious changes from that much more restricted surgery. The change in appearance is still pretty clear under the swelling and puffy eyes with a clear difference to my brow. I had a neck and face lift with some of the fat transferred to my cheeks, but everything is still tight and swollen so I'm not making any judgements there. Apart from the sutures I didn't really notice anything from my upper lip lift until day 4 or 5 when I first noticed the visual change along with a change in sensation soon after. The surgeon hadn't told me that I'd have ointment in my eyes after fixing my droopy eyelids and that would limit my vision, which upset some of my recovery distraction plans. I was fairly angry, but also nearly laughed when on discharge from hospital he gave me a printed page about recovery from eye-lid surgery that I couldn't read.
Since discharge after 2 nights in hospital I've been pretty much on my own apart from my neighbour, who is a nurse, spending some time with me on the first evening at home, giving great advice about ice packs and reading the instructions for me. I've been given a couple of meals and some home grown roses. My kids have all called from interstate, my son daily. He had hoped to come and be with me but Covid rules prevented him coming.
I've been planning this surgery since quite early in my transition journey and seem to have isolated myself from any strong emotions. I suspect that once the sutures are out (hopefully tomorrow) and I start to feel less discomfort over the following days the emotions might start to creep back in as I gradually start resuming some more normal activities and getting out a bit. I've battled depression in the past which seems to mostly affect me with serious amotivation. I've some strategies for dealing with that but obviously hope that the reduced dysphoria will play a significant positive role.
do they stop for tea or fag breaks or lunch