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Nicole, can you ever just have a boring day! Your last couple of weeks have been epic, with coming out at work, coming out to the general public, and enduring The Day After Tomorrow! Your emotions have been dragged all over the place, and when dumped in a chily room with just candles to shed light, is it any wonder you are down. I agree with Kenna about being straight with you brother, having said that, being straight with my brother and ex hasn't really worked.
I have been really down over the past 3 weeks, with absolutely nothing positive happening, and no prospects of things getting better. Today, I had my 6 week post op review, and got some good news for a change. I can drop my morning salt bath, walk as far as feels good, and lift whatever is comfortable. The best part of this is I am clear to see my grandkids, and I will be heading up to see them tomorrow morning! I know this will bring the first joy to me for weeks as I haven't seen my kids for 2 months. This bit of good news has allowed me to look at my financial future with a bit more positive view, and, while it is going to cripple me financially, there is a good chance I will keep my house and lifestyle.
I think we make this rollercoaster worse than it really is. We celebrate when things are going good, but we allow ourselves to fall into old sorrows when things are a bit rough. I spent the last 3 weeks cursing being trans, and all it has cost me. It sucks, but that is my life, and I need to not fall into the misery of regret when my current challenges hit me. It makes me go so much lower than I need to, and it's not something I can change, so I need to be able to concentrate on the challenges before me. Now, these are words of wisdom, but so far I haven't been able to live by them!
Hugs,
Allie
I have been really down over the past 3 weeks, with absolutely nothing positive happening, and no prospects of things getting better. Today, I had my 6 week post op review, and got some good news for a change. I can drop my morning salt bath, walk as far as feels good, and lift whatever is comfortable. The best part of this is I am clear to see my grandkids, and I will be heading up to see them tomorrow morning! I know this will bring the first joy to me for weeks as I haven't seen my kids for 2 months. This bit of good news has allowed me to look at my financial future with a bit more positive view, and, while it is going to cripple me financially, there is a good chance I will keep my house and lifestyle.
I think we make this rollercoaster worse than it really is. We celebrate when things are going good, but we allow ourselves to fall into old sorrows when things are a bit rough. I spent the last 3 weeks cursing being trans, and all it has cost me. It sucks, but that is my life, and I need to not fall into the misery of regret when my current challenges hit me. It makes me go so much lower than I need to, and it's not something I can change, so I need to be able to concentrate on the challenges before me. Now, these are words of wisdom, but so far I haven't been able to live by them!
Hugs,
Allie