- Jul 4, 2020
- Gender Pronouns
- He, Him, His, Himself
- Gender Identity
This I knew was coming since last week, what I didn’t know was the email I got late yesterday saying that I have a Microsoft teams meeting on Wednesday to meet with all of the HR people that I talked with or have been made part of this discussion, plus the original guy from the Pride Alliance. It’s supposed to be a wrapup meeting so, I can go over all we go through today.
OK....I guess........why not.......then .....I see an extra name on the list.
They also invited the HR person for my region ......who I have known for years now. Same person who also talks every day with my regional manager and from time to time with my branch manager..
I was very specific to tell them, “upper management can know, but nobody from my region“ Now I’m supposed to believe and trust that she won’t go and tell any of them............I’m a little bit freaked out if I can trust her.
To me, it’s much easier to tell somebody who you’ve never met than the acquaintance who’s known you for years. Family members and friends have some love for you to start with, this gives you something to work with. Work acquaintances don’t care enough to have that love. They tend to be much more judging. If I’m going to tell somebody like this, Id like to tell them myself and not have it leaked out before I have the meeting. Just shook me up, at a time Im questioning whether I have enough fortitude even get through this.
It’s tough enough at this point knowing that I don’t have control over most things, but it annoys me further when someone takes away the little bit of control I do have. All of this just makes me feel like they’re speeding up the process that I don’t want sped up yet. I need to go through this piece by piece not all at once. So today I want to put my business face on ( but as Nicole), same with tomorrow.
I need to go in there and control the room, need to take back control of the situation ASAP.
Time to find my inner strength.......
I know it is scary, but it looks like they are trying to accommodate you. Like Allie said, they want to look good and inclusive at the end of this. Just take a deep breath and relax. Tell them how you want this to go and let them know your fears about information flow. YOU GOT THIS!