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Nicole’s neurotic Notebook

NicoleT

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🎶” Coast to coast, la to chicago,.........🎶.... western male.
......Across the north and south, to key largo, ........🎶......love for sale.“

I know that song.... I’m glad my doctor was a smooth operator.....

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So, how are you feeling now Nicole? Did they use my stuff on you?
If it was minimal invasive, i.e. with a scope, they would not have used an incission film. But they might have used Steri Strips and Tegaderm to close the wound.

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I don’t know you tell me here’s a picture of my sexy stomach... it came out upside down due to angle

Good news is I had a girl😉

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It’s official I am obsessed I love this little beaver...it is the cutest thing ever.... It actually helps me relax looking at it
So Cute.......
 

Linde

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I don’t know you tell me here’s a picture of my sexy stomach... it came out upside down due to angle

Good news is I had a girl😉

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It was minimal invasive, and it looks as if the used tissue glue to close the incissions. That glue comes from our labs, too. But i was not involved with this.
I would have put Steri Strips over it to reduce the size of the scars.

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Moni

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Scars can be lasered, you'll hardly notice them. Bikini still on!
 

NicoleT

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My daughter just set me straight...Damn........

So....I’m Reading a bunch of stuff about how my body works after my gallbladder is gone one of the major problems is the fact that you have a hard time processing fat and you gain weight. Not exactly what I need to hear.

So the biggest fights I have in life.....
Gain confidence as me~~~~~~>while Losing weight to feel better about myself ~~~~>while transitioning my body~~~~~~~>while recovering from gallbladder surgery~~~~~~>while avoiding Covid ~~~~~~>while transition at work ~~~~~~~~> while continuing to pay my bills~~~~~~~>while getting over the death of my wife ………(it has been one hell of a year Folks...).

Overcoming adversity seems to be one of the things we all have to do. Let’s face it being transgender is not for the faint of heart it is only for the brave and the strong. Some days though you just don’t have as much fight left.

I said this to my daughter, she wasn’t having it (this girl is amazing) she said to me....
.” your the strongest person I know, most would have given up by now.....but you won’t ...I know it because ( dead name )might have given in...but your different......your tougher now, more positive, Nicole is strong and comes from a long line of strong women in this family.....nothing will stop you, I can see it in your eyes ....and Im here to help you.....Us women stick together you know”
..😳

Well she kicked my @ss....Who knew this little girl I raised was going to grow up to be this amazing. The pity party has been cancelled. Lol...Great to have her behind me. So proud and she is studying to become a teacher. Got to say sounds like she’s gonna be good at it huh.
 

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Pretty smart kid you got there Miss @NicoleT .
 

NicoleT

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Super smart..love her...

Hey recent trend I’ve been going on Facebook more often( I’m home bored) and I’ve noticed a bunch of friend requests from people here on this site. A few of you have been friends of mine on Facebook for quite a while now but I haven’t really excepted my friend request in months. So if I have now excepted a friend request from you just recently remember that on my Facebook I am not completely out due to work yet. Yes I’m on there as my dying name. Old pictures and all. No shame in who I was.

I don’t hide my feelings on trans rights, gay rights or anything else but any direct knowledge of me being trans on Facebook would be new knowledge to a number of people including my boss. Otherwise I welcome all my friends here to be Facebook friends with me and I enjoy seeing your posts.
Please do realize that I do not keep up with it constantly so I may miss a post, I may miss something you might have said, I may even miss your friend request, it’s not personal I just don’t pay that much attention.

I’m going to take some meds and rest for the next hour and a half then I’ll go check out the zoom.

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Nicole I REALLY wish there was a great big ol' heart emoji we could use on people's posts. Because that post about your daughter setting you straight would totally deserve as many hearts as one could put on there. That was a fantastic post about her. You can tell she was raised by great parents!!!
 

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Yes she obviously rocks. 'Took the words right out of my mouth' - Meat Loaf :LOL:
 

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This is that new truename MasterCard Commercial I saw...good stuff. As long as I pay for the card name should be me right......

Just signs of progress I like to see...
 

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This is that new truename MasterCard Commercial I saw...good stuff. As long as I pay for the card name should be me right......

Just signs of progress I like to see...
I thought you could always get a second card with any name you tell them on it. But this is very nice.
 

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Comment- your daughters are wonderful, Facebook is the devil! :sneaky:
 

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Lol....That reminds me of the Waterboy...” mama” (Kathy Bates) everything is the Devil 👿
 

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Comment- your daughters are wonderful, Facebook is the devil! :sneaky:
I know that about Facebook but all my devil friends are there.
 

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My boss just called me to check on how I was feeling. Not pushy or anything just genuinely cared wanted to make sure I was OK. After some friendly banter we were getting off the phone and I almost told him that we were going to have to sit down and have a talk about something else. I swear to god if it kept me on the phone for another 30 seconds I would have at least asked him to do that. No way I would tell him on the phone about me, but I was that close to actually asking him to meet with me to talk.

Wow....there is no doubt my mind is preparing to tell him what’s going on. Don’t get me wrong the fear of rejection, the fear of losing income, all of that comes in the mind ............but I seem to be feeling like being me is just more important😢.

Unlike usual where I just put emojis all throughout my thread ......the last emoji I put down was because it was real. I actually just cried (saying that ....I’m.speak typing)so writing that. I Think that’s a pretty telling sign isn’t it. I guess only time will tell what happens next.

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( my God I’m such a girl ....right)
 

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Nicole, we are on this rollercoaster, and not much is actually in our control. Your brain is demanding a resolution to this gender ambiguity, and this is why you almost told your boss. You know it is going to happen, and the only question is when. It sounds like he does care for you, even if it is because you are a valued employee, so it follows he is going to try to find ways to keep you in his team. Honestly, if he knew now or in January, will it make much difference? Maybe in that time he can find solutions you haven't thought of. How will you feel once this weight is off?

You have time to ponder, and hopefully you can make a decision which won't bring you to tears as you write it down.

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