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Cassie J

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My life as Cassie,It all started young thinking I was the typical macho and masculine male growing up at first through my life.Inside,I was hiding something in which stayed in the closet for a long time.Age 10,remember trying on my step sister Renee's dress and loved how comfortable it was to wear.It happened once and later in my teens about my freshman year of high school,tried on a few pieces of clothing of my mom's at times when she was gone doing something never getting caught.It stopped after that and lived my male life after that.Inside I was still unhappy and frustrated through the years hiding it in the closet still.This cost me my first marriage resulting in divorce 10 years ago.It also cost me a relationship when I started dating over again which lasted a year.I was hurting inside and hid it in more.Then I met my current wife whom got me to dress as female at time going out with her at times.I loved it and she saw it too.I thought it was going to end this marriage 6 years ago.My family saw I was unhappy and frustrated at times.My wife and I had a talk one day,said she saw I was unhappy and frustrated inside.I said don't worry about me.Then she said I was digging myself in a big hole hiding it inside for a long time.Said I needed to come out about it too.I thought it over and realized she was right.This was in October of 2015 a couple weeks from national coming out day.Did my research and realized I was transgender in a way being a crossdresser.Finally on national coming out day in 2015,had my mom,older brother,younger sister,step dad and step sister over to my place.My wife including my ex wife were there too.I was in the bedroom preparing for it all and finally walked and said I was ready to do it.Looked at them and came out as transgender being a crossdresser.It went good after that and got myself out of the hole filling it in completely.Started part time with my wife's help,she helped me buy clothes shoes and make up.She does piercing and pierced both of my ears.I finally found my true self going out with my wife dressed as Cassie.It also made me realize I would be much happier as Cassie fulltime.This was a tough decision at first for me and went for it half a year into it.During while I did it part time,had hair removal by electrolysis getting rid of my razor and shaving supplies.Began to get rid of some of my male clothing I never wore anymore.Started to grow out my nails too.It was about July of 2016,said goodbye to my life living as male and life as Cassie fulltime has been great to this day.My family sees me much happier and and has adjusted very well.Wife is glad I have my life back together and has been 100% supportive.My ex wife and I are still on good terms and we still talk to each other.She also sees me much happier and we have 2 daughters together.It was tough for my daughters to accept it at first,they were 12 and 14 at the time.It took them time to accept I am much happier as a fulltime crossdresser not going back.2017,I did have a couple surgeries having the trachea shave and breast augmentation which went great.I say the biggest surprise of my journey was going to my 20th high school class reunion in 2017 showing the change I went through.Most of my friends accepted the changes and saw I was much happier.It took time for some of my classmates to adjust to me much happier as Cassie.A couple of teachers I had did have an OMG look on their face seeing the new me much happier.Thinking it over,I never want to go back to my old life ever again
 

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Good for you sounds like you found yourself. It truly is a hard process but the payoff is fantastic. I’m glad you have support around you.
Congratulations on starting a blog and welcome to the forum. I’m glad you found us.

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Nicole
 

Cassie J

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The years of frustration and being unhappy are gone now.Shopping for clothes is more more fun and and wife says I look better dressed as a woman.I wanted to go on the HRT for breast development at first.Doing my research,found out have a history of breast cancer on my mom and dad's families.I didn't want to go through that.
 

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The years of frustration and being unhappy are gone now.Shopping for clothes is more more fun and and wife says I look better dressed as a woman.I wanted to go on the HRT for breast development at first.Doing my research,found out have a history of breast cancer on my mom and dad's families.I didn't want to go through that.
I hope you are aware that biological males with just your average male breasts can get breast cancer, too? Almost all males who developed breast cancer, die from it, while most females will survive. The reason is that the cancer can be better detected in the larger female breast, and females do more preventive measures.
Not developing a larger breast could put you in more danger than developing one! Check with your endocrinologist or a geneologischst about your risk.


Linde
 

Cassie J

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I hope you are aware that biological males with just your average male breasts can get breast cancer, too? Almost all males who developed breast cancer, die from it, while most females will survive. The reason is that the cancer can be better detected in the larger female breast, and females do more preventive measures.
Not developing a larger breast could put you in more danger than developing one! Check with your endocrinologist or a geneologischst about your risk.


Linde
No history with the males on either side of my parents families
 

Linde

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No history with the males on either side of my parents families
You might be lucky, too.. Talk with your endo about it. You might deprive you of an additional help with reducing dysphoria by not taking estrogen.

Linde
 

Cassie J

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You might be lucky, too.. Talk with your endo about it. You might deprive you of an additional help with reducing dysphoria by not taking estrogen.

Linde
I don't plan on going on the estrogen,no transition
 

Cassie J

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Still remember the first time out as Cassie fulltime.Wife saw it was time seeing me pick out a nice top and pair of Cassie's jeans also doing my make up.Said we were going to get rid of my male wardrobe and did.She saw I became much happier after that.January 2017 is when I had my breast augmentation and trachea shave,it was well worth it.I loved the results right away
 

Linde

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Still remember the first time out as Cassie fulltime.Wife saw it was time seeing me pick out a nice top and pair of Cassie's jeans also doing my make up.Said we were going to get rid of my male wardrobe and did.She saw I became much happier after that.January 2017 is when I had my breast augmentation and trachea shave,it was well worth it.I loved the results right away
But would you not consider BA and trachea shave to be part of medical transition already? The only major surgery for you might be GRS.

I neither had, or plan to have BA or a trachea shave. GRS was the only surgery I had. So, you had more done to you than I did, and I consider myself to be a woman by 100%.

I still think with all the body modifications you had, getting on estrogen would make you feel way better.

Linde
 

Cassie J

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But would you not consider BA and trachea shave to be part of medical transition already? The only major surgery for you might be GRS.

I neither had, or plan to have BA or a trachea shave. GRS was the only surgery I had. So, you had more done to you than I did, and I consider myself to be a woman by 100%.

I still think with all the body modifications you had, getting on estrogen would make you feel way better.

Linde
No,they were an option for me.I am completely happy as a fulltime crossdresser
 

Cassie J

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My life was a mess also,there were times I was heading in the wrong direction in life.Hung around the people that did did bad things.My parent told me it was happening and said yeah right,I was wrong.Realized I was wrong and they were right.Finally thought about it and went to the Marines recruiting office and enlisted.Did the right thing and they were proud of me.6 years in the Marines straightened me out good and don't regret it.I am lucky,involved in group of transgender veterans that helped me through my journey very well.Also met new good friends while serving in the Marines.One is my friend Shannon whom is a post op MTF transsexual,she has been a great help through my journey
 
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