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Kim's delusional ramblings

Emma

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I drink iced tea at Applebee's because I hate diet Pepsi that much.

I'm a Diet Coke girl.
I’m an iced tea drinker too - unsweetened. I don’t care for Pepsi either, but Diet Coke, Dr Pepper, or a&w on the rare occasion I drink soda.
 

NicoleT

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Round these parts anyway, thinking you can get a Diet Coke at Applebee's is delusional. They serve Pepsi products.
....NOoooooooooooooooooooo......Im really cursed going out this weekend now....🤯...Only Pepsi?

LoL... Great something else to worry about this weekend......😉

I'm just regular. Pepsi, Pepsi Pepsi, cheeseburger, cheeseburger, cheeseburger!
still one of the best skits in Saturday night live history.......😂..
......RIP Belushi...

But seriously are used to hate everything and anything they had to do with a diet. I wouldn’t drink a diet soda it was terrible. Now I have to admit it’s all I drink. I love the new zero fad. Coke zero Pepsi zero, zero colas with cherry, Mountain dew zero.....all I drink now for Soda. Truth is I drink more water than anything lately. Yes I’ve become one boring bitch on my diet. Oh well got to get skinny.....

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....NOoooooooooooooooooooo......Im really cursed going out this weekend now....🤯...Only Pepsi?

LoL... Great something else to worry about this weekend......😉



still one of the best skits in Saturday night live history.......😂..
......RIP Belushi...

But seriously are used to hate everything and anything they had to do with a diet. I wouldn’t drink a diet soda it was terrible. Now I have to admit it’s all I drink. I love the new zero fad. Coke zero Pepsi zero, zero colas with cherry, Mountain dew zero.....all I drink now for Soda. Truth is I drink more water than anything lately. Yes I’ve become one boring bitch on my diet. Oh well got to get skinny.....

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They might have diet Dew, if you like that. And I like iced tea. Good alternative to soda at every meal.


One of the best 🍔 🍔 skits was when the Coke salesman talked them into switching. Of course the next customer actually orders a Pepsi.

No Pepsi, Coke.
 

KimOct

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I'm just regular. Pepsi, Pepsi Pepsi, cheeseburger, cheeseburger, cheeseburger!
Rest assured - your ramblings are delusional.

As for Pepsi, Pepsi, cheeseburger cheeseburger - that SNL skit was based on 'Billy Goat's Tavern' - not really a tavern more of a burger place. Really cool place where I used to have lunch. In downtown Chicago under the Tribune Tower on Michigan next to the river. On the lower level of lower Michigan Ave - You can't even see it from the street. Had one of the most life changing conversations of my life when I let 'the right one' get away. I'm so stupid.
 

KimOct

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And yes they really did talk like that at Billy Goat's. The skit was frighteningly and hilariously accurate. Those guys Belushi and Ackroyd were from Chicago and they obviously had eaten there. (I knew Belushi's mom Agnes - friend of my other mother )

For those that like stories / trivia Billy Goat's is why the Chicago Cubs didn't win a world series for 108 years. Here's the story and it actually happened. Not that the curse was real but the story is.


And @Emma there are no rules to this thread - hence the name delusional ramblings.
 

NicoleT

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Kim.....great story. I knew that Belushi and Aykroyd were both part of the second city comedy theatre skit that later became Saturday night live in New York City, so it makes sense with all the ties to Chicago. And yes when you mentioned the name of the burger shop, I wondered if it was from that great story of 1908 and the Curse of the Chicago Cubs.

I love little hole in the ground places like that sometimes they make the best food. Let’s face it Chicago it’s got a Lotta great food. Their Italian beef sandwich is unbelievable. Sadly I could do this with the most regions of the United States which is probably why I got so heavy. Anyway ........

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Donica

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I loved that SNL skit. And You can't forget Gilda Radner and Jane Curtin that ignorant slut :ROFLMAO:
 

KimOct

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So I have been a bit down for awhile. Living alone during this social distancing sucks. But then again I remember living with my ex for 18 years. I can't even imagine what kind of hell this would be if I was still married to her. :eek: So I guess things could be worse. 😁

I also think going days on end without getting fixed up is not helping my body/face dysphoria. And I am torn about going back to work at some point. The racetrack / poker room I work at as a dealer is still closed but will open soon. I miss my friends there but I am at high risk if I catch the virus. And I can't afford to fully retire so both options suck. But I'm OK, just not great.

Anyhoo - tomorrow I am going with my daughter and her live-in boyfriend to the GUN RANGE. 😮:unsure::oops: I haven't fired a gun in 30 years. But he is an avid hunter - gun enthusiast. UGH. The only thing about him I am not too happy about. But he is very good to my daughter so I guess nothing is perfect. They invited me to go with them so I figured yeah I guess so.

My brother also wants to give me a handgun for self protection. I HATE guns. My best friend was murdered years ago. And now it's here a gun, there a gun, everywhere a gun-gun. o_O😲

OH MY a post from me without any preaching about living openly - finding courage or any of that stuff. What is wrong with me? :ROFLMAO:

I think @Moni hid my soapbox. :unsure:😆
 

Donica

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Just to touch on the living alone thing Kim, same here, and I also can't see myself in that relationship any more. We were married for 28 years, and divorced for 8, going on 9 years now. Still not enough time to recover for me. Maybe I'll be ready to consider some kind of relationship, roommate thing again after my GCS. Well, 6 months to a year after my GCS. I don't think I'm going to be up for anything soon after that kinda surgery.
 

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Just to touch on the living alone thing Kim, same here, and I also can't see myself in that relationship any more. We were married for 28 years, and divorced for 8, going on 9 years now. Still not enough time to recover for me. Maybe I'll be ready to consider some kind of relationship, roommate thing again after my GCS. Well, 6 months to a year after my GCS. I don't think I'm going to be up for anything soon after that kinda surgery.
I think because we seem to be more emotional than many other people, no matter which gender we were displaying at any given time. Any kind of permanent separation or divorce seems to hit us harder than most others. We seem to need a long time to heal from it. I am alone now for 17 years, and still feel sad about what happened way back when, which was the cause of the divorce. I am still kind of scared to get into any close relation again, because I do not want to be hurt that deeply again.

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Now you can see why those of us who have some hope to save a relationship struggle so hard to keep it together. I saved mine but it lacks the intimacy I need, so I still need to see what develops in coming years.

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Allie
 

NicoleT

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Kim......Im sorry you’re feeling down. Living alone is very tough I know a first-hand feeling of that right now. With my focus on my transition the way it is it has helped at least but she still gone and she’s not coming back. Seems like we need to have some get-togethers. We need to get rid of this Covid and find some time for a bunch of us to find a place to hang out.

I hope you can get back to work and you’ll be safe when you get there Kim. Hang in there I’m hoping this summer will be a nice one.......Covid will fade away.......... and you can actually go out and do something fun.

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So I went yesterday met the boyfriend finally - I approve - he is very kind and caring with her. As for the gun range... OMG it was redneck heaven. I live in Metro Mpls (20 miles from the riots - whole different conversation ) and this gun range was across the river in rural Wisconsin. I decided to go cross-dressed (guy mode) hat on my head. Thank goodness. The place was hilarious.

You walk in and there are about 10 guys sitting at a bar where you pay for the range fee. I do my best guy impression - 'hey how ya doin' I used to be so good at it - wow was I out of practice. I guess I have changed my mannerisms more than I thought. So anyway daughter and BF pull up a few minutes behind me and we go shoot. Fortunately he is very safety conscious and a good instructor. I feel like my daughter is in good hands and I will only be slightly nervous when she goes with him in the future.

We start shooting and he pulls out a 44 Magnum. Holy crap. Asks if I want to try it. Nervously I say sure. HOLY CRAP !!!!!!!!
It was like having a cannon in my hand. It was crazy. After I shot it I started laughing - I could not believe how powerful it was.

So now nobody can mess with me... I am one bad-ass trans bitch. 😮 :ROFLMAO:;)
 

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@ Kim, did you go to the Hudson Rifle Range? Or which place did you go?


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KimOct

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As I told Linde on Zoom last night I did go to the Hudson gun range. She claims it is NOT rural Wisconsin. I beg to differ. If I see birch trees and pine trees and good ole boys gathered around the bar.... it's rural. 😁

So the macho stuff continued today. Thursday I fired the 'hand cannon' and today when I went to get my car fixed I was the last 'customer' in the shop. A guy I know from where I deal poker is the lead mechanic and he works on my car off the clock for cheap.

Anyway - he couldn't remove a bolt from a thinga majigy ( bracket that holds the brake caliper - huh? ) so he gets a small butane torch to heat it. Not good enough. So then....... he goes in back for the serious stuff. And wheels out these 4 foot high tanks attached to this gigantic blow torch. :eek: He fires it up and is using it on the part. THEN....... while the giant flame is still blowing out of this blow torch he hands it to me and says ' here hold this for a minute'. WHAT ???!!!!! 😲😮:eek::ROFLMAO: So I am standing there holding this flame thrower. LOL.

Way too much macho stuff in 48 hours. I think I may have to de-transition. 😆
 

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@ Kim, your mechanic should go with the modern times. My son, the master mechanic, working in one of the Metro Transit shops managing a shift, showed me a cool gismo for this It is sold by SnapOn (who else?) and costs a few 100 dollars, and makes a fun play of those bolt. It uses inductive electricity to heat up only the metal parts, and thus bursts away any connective rust. It really works like a charm, even on the big old city busses that are abused like hell!
 

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As I told Linde on Zoom last night I did go to the Hudson gun range. She claims it is NOT rural Wisconsin. I beg to differ. If I see birch trees and pine trees and good ole boys gathered around the bar.... it's rural. 😁

So the macho stuff continued today. Thursday I fired the 'hand cannon' and today when I went to get my car fixed I was the last 'customer' in the shop. A guy I know from where I deal poker is the lead mechanic and he works on my car off the clock for cheap.

Anyway - he couldn't remove a bolt from a thinga majigy ( bracket that holds the brake caliper - huh? ) so he gets a small butane torch to heat it. Not good enough. So then....... he goes in back for the serious stuff. And wheels out these 4 foot high tanks attached to this gigantic blow torch. :eek: He fires it up and is using it on the part. THEN....... while the giant flame is still blowing out of this blow torch he hands it to me and says ' here hold this for a minute'. WHAT ???!!!!! 😲😮:eek::ROFLMAO: So I am standing there holding this flame thrower. LOL.

Way too much macho stuff in 48 hours. I think I may have to de-transition. 😆
Lol.....😂😂😂😂😂😂

You’re gonna have to hand over your girl papers. Time to reissue your macho card......lol
I mean you literally held fire in your hands now.......

Hey , It just means you’re one bad ass bitch...... Own it. Someone gets out of line here ....you have to deal with Kim.
” she will find you........grab her a hand cannon, scissors, Lysol, a blow torch and a pair of pliers, ............go get medieval on your ass”...Lol.

Lets just hope he fixed your car.

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@ Kim, your mechanic should go with the modern times. My son, the master mechanic, working in one of the Metro Transit shops managing a shift, showed me a cool gismo for this It is sold by SnapOn (who else?) and costs a few 100 dollars, and makes a fun play of those bolt. It uses inductive electricity to heat up only the metal parts, and thus bursts away any connective rust. It really works like a charm, even on the big old city busses that are abused like hell!
Sounds like my induction stove!
 

Linde

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Sounds like my induction stove!
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Kenna
Kind of a similar principle, just surrounding the entire nut and heating it up like hell.

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Linde
 

KimOct

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As I continue to do I visited Emma's (SP) blog tonight. I can't help myself. I check on her a couple of times per month. So I posted two things that I thought were pretty good. Kind of old news for this group but in case there are any newbies that actually read my blog I thought I would share.

This journey will be the same as all other journeys of marginalized people. Recent events have reminded those of us that don't live it in our daily lives of the injustice of decades and centuries of racism. The gay community has made significant progress but make no mistake they are not considered equals by all.

The transgender community is in our early steps of our journey to acceptance. I know there are those that transitioned decades ago - I cannot imagine the difficulty they endured. But in upcoming decades society will evolve - slowly.

That is why I am personally proud to live as openly transgender. It was not my plan. I wanted to appear cis. I wanted the ability to be stealth.

But a huge silver lining in that disappointment is I firmly believe that by living as openly transgender - by not passing - and being so very publicly visible as I am that I am helping to move the needle with hundreds of people that know me and I am certain that I have created greater acceptance in society. Am I changing the world? Well at least a tiny part of it.
 
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