- Jul 4, 2020
- Gender Pronouns
- He, Him, His, Himself
- Gender Identity
Mike, could you explain this more? I'm not following.
Did you miss the part about a hyperactive grandson? I just said it to confuse you Moni.
I think I am gender fluid Moni, but I think the dysphoria fluctuates also. I don't really know how to explain it. As I said I am still learning. Puberty brought on all kinds of things. Dysphoria, depression, and I was suicidal much of the time. You read my initial story, but I didn't admit to being suicidal in it. That movie I watched many years ago about the futuristic machine that could change anything about you, even your sex, stayed in my head for months. I just knew I wanted to trade places with my wife, and the feeling wouldn't go away. Back then I had no clue what caused it and didn't even know what transgender was. I certainly had no one to ask. Even when I heard the term transgender, I didn't relate to being an immoral degenerate child molester like that was portrayed to me, until I realized I was one
I believe hormones play a role, and is probably why dysphoria seems to get worse for many when you get older. Most of my life I have had dysphoria with my lower parts, but not normally about boobs. Over Thanksgiving I started getting sore nipples and realized something is happening there. I was surprised with how I felt about it and after prayer and talking with my wife I finally decided to see what happens. I have also found that some of the conversations on this forum brings up emotions I can't explain. I have even taken days away from it to see if it makes a difference. (My wife would like it if I took more breaks) I find I now really look forward to the day I can get estrogen, especially after reading what others here say. My urologist would tell you I badgered him about getting estrogen on my last visit. I think I might have stated once before I am messed up. If not, I'm sure you have.