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Linde

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My dear, I can understand your haste, but most changes in life are in slow motion.
It took me well over 10 years to shed the man and bring the woman out.

This entire trans thing is a game of patience, and can't be hasted.

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I think my problem is not just the changing from male to female, but more over the what people call lil speed bumps, but in my case are frigging mountains that are getting in my way. As you said when we met Linde, I was dealt a shit hand of cards, yet I have a hell of a poker face...Patience is prolly my biggest virtue. I have dealt with life going in slo-motion for so long its just second nature. I'm just wondering when it will be my time in life to have something positive happen to me with out having to go thru something negative. But life hands me lemons so I will just stuff my bra with them..
 
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See girl, you have the right attitude, and with a little luck, you may have some lemons left for a tasty lemonade!

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See girl, you have the right attitude, and with a little luck, you may have some lemons left for a tasty lemonade!

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Welcome Linde! glad you could join our refuge! You will find another member here with the same name, but don't worry about her, as she often can't log in!!

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Welcome, @Linde . You seem familiar...
 

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Yeah, I ran across this other Linde, too. she is my long lost twin, we were seperated at birth. We even got identical names! I am so glad that she finally found me!

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I think you should get new glasses Katie, there is nothing long in the name!

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I think you should get new glasses Katie, there is nothing long in the name!

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You changed it back. That's not fair.

And I actually have an optometrist appointment next week because I want to finally ditch my "old man" glasses. I am going to ask about contact lenses, because I am sick of dealing with fogged up lenses when wearing a mask.
 
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I has my HRT dr appointment today, but going to try and be high tech about it and do it over my computer web cam, I hope I don't screw this up...Im hoping things go well for me as I will be talking to my doc about my recent liver cancer diagnosis and my Hrt regiment, I soo don't want lose any progress I have made, though I feel like I haven't made any in so long, . this visit marks about 3 months maybe a lil more on Hrt.
 

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Hoping your appointment goes well Adora.

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I has my HRT dr appointment today, but going to try and be high tech about it and do it over my computer web cam, I hope I don't screw this up...Im hoping things go well for me as I will be talking to my doc about my recent liver cancer diagnosis and my Hrt regiment, I soo don't want lose any progress I have made, though I feel like I haven't made any in so long, . this visit marks about 3 months maybe a lil more on Hrt.
@Adora with the liver concerns, you might want to suggest switching from pills to shots in order to take any additional liver strain out of the equation.
 

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Adora my friend, I hope that everything goes well today!
As Katie said, you might want to ask to be put on injections.

Take care, and let us know.

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well the appointment went just fine, my blood counts are a lil bit down, but thats nothing new,
As far as my estrogen goes, I have always been on the patch, so I don't have to take pills or worry about them,
my dose hasn't got up any, but were making sure Im safe with the Low dose of the patch.
maybe when I have my next appointment in 8 weeks after I get my liver treatments started we cn talk more about upping my dose and if I will remain on the patch or go to an injection.
I feel so far behind on how my body should be looking and feeling, but I guess slow and stead the course is the way for me till I can get a handle on everything going on with me medically other then my transition. I can't stop this as this is the most positive thing going for me, and mentally keeps me happy . Now, remember this. I have never been on the pill treatments, its always been the patch...not sure how everyone thinks I was on the pill, anyways...I have too many pills to take other wise with out having to remember to take another...yuck...I love my patch,...one patch change out every 7 days...works just fine for me. Silly people....Now time to go and get such...I want Pizza for some reason....maybe spinach ....topped with tomatoes and xtra cheese
 

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Sounds great Adore. You deserve a pizza. Oh yes! And with mass quantities of cheese is a must. It's my only vice.
 

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So today is an alright day, I woke up, jeez the worlds in trouble, Im still alive.
Its raining and cold outside, so this does nothing for my mood other then make me wanna stay in bed in my jammies and just stare at the ceiling, or maybe watch some Sad , romantic tear jerker movie like Terminator, maybe Predator.
My body is kinda wracked with exhaustion, I guess its going thru the motions and the changes, like the past couple weeks my hips and lower back have been killing me, and I got out the other morning and realized my standing was totally odd, my shoulders were thrust back my abs were thrust forward and my but was sticking out a bit, I think my ligaments have begun to move around tilting my pelvis a bit, and I don't even play pinball.
I haven't noticed any fat redistribution as I don't know it will happen fast at all , my estrogen dosing is so minute its taken this long to even see any real signs in my face. My hair is growing out, as right now its the longest its ever Benn in my life, so Im happy about that, and I think the hair on my body is diminishing not that I had alot to begin with. I use to have alot of heir on my back and chest, not really like a burly Neanderthal, but it was sorta noticeable, but its now all but totally gone leaving a baby smooth chest. Its prolly more an after effect from all the chemo and treatment drugs I have had to endure over my life, then really my estrogen output and intake. So maybe I should be thankful for that.
Inhavent seen my foot and ankle doctor since my last liver episode that put me in the hospital almost a month ago,. I need to set up an appointment to talk about straightening my toe with surgery but I want to know more about my treatments for my liver before I have ny other surgery. They may suggest I don't have any, which will totally throw off my traditions schedule I have planned out. I don't want to wait forever for my testicle removal, and my chest reconstruction. But with my weaken immunity they may want me o put those off if I can...makes me so sad, I began this journey with soo much exuberance, and was going ahead at a good clip and now I this wall. I want to smash it and go beyond but my movement speed is in the hands of my doctors and I feel they are dragging behind me...I''m not a complainer, but what the hell am I suppose to do?
I have played the hurry up and wait game soo much in my life, its trying my patience, and believe me I have alot, a surplus even.
I need something to get my mind off all this really, if I don't I will go crazy, I'm already insane so whats another step into the madness..lol.
I need to do something bring my spirits up...it's gonna be hard as covid is being a thorn in the world side, but I will do it, I will go beyond..Plus Ultra!
 

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maybe watch some Sad , romantic tear jerker movie like Terminator, maybe Predator
Lol. Humor is good medicine.
 

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Can I Catch a break on this roller coaster I call life? Last Month I was hospitalized at the beginning of the month because I had an episode with my liver that had the end result of me being diagnosed with liver caner, right at the moment I was done with dealing and claiming victory over my year long fight with breast cancer. So I had my biopsy and was in my healing process and trudging ahead with plans to knock ou this liver cancer. Low and behold 3 weeks went by and I was feeling discomfort in my abdomen it began a week and a half ago. it was harsh but but a low drumming annoyance kind of pain. So I went to the ER and hey CAT scanned me, ...and found I had a blood clot in the vein leading out of my liver into my stomach. They didn't say what the cause of it was but I know it was the biopsy that produced his clot as the tumor was so close by where the clot had formed. Well the fix was to give me a Heprin drip to break up the clot. It worked, but apparently too well . It thinned my blood so much I began to bleed out in some part of my body and we didn't know were. I have a chronic history of Anemia and low blood counts so this wa exacerbated by the Heprin. I bread lout a lot thru my nose as well. The did a scope into my stomach and had to place 4 bands on bulging veins in my esophagus and then removed 2 polyps from my stomach. Apparently this has fixed my problem for now. Good news is on the 18th I go to UAMS liver cancer dept for a consultation to figure out how we are going to that my cancer. I.m way moe confident now in my approach to this then when my Onocologyst just said they were going to that the cancer with a chemo pill. So Keep ya stick on the ice, were all pulling for ya!
 

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Hey girl, not really good news but not that bad either. You will do it and come through again. I am with you in my prayers!

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Not it wasn't the best of news, but yeah I could have expected even worst. I will stay the course, 1000 points of light, and any other positive thing I can think of.
 
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