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aronkiss

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in july in my back i see some red strias i go endocrynologist and she make some hormone test and she find out i have more than the maxium helathy dose of estadiol mand my testosterone also in a high end somebody has the same issue or has a idea what is bad with me? i also feel myself as a female since when i was a kid.
 

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Hi Aronkiss! We normally make both testosterone and oestrogen, but it is unusual to make high levels of E. Do you have children, or have you tried to have children, but failed? Your endocrinologist should have followed up why your levels are different to the normal ranges.

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no i am young maybe i have some sort of genetic proble i have some another disorders
 

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Aronkiss, unusual hormone levels indicate somthing unusual is going on in your system, and it’s worth investigating. It could be you are intersex, but likely one of your other disorders is affecting your system. Insist on some answeres from your endo! Do you fee a need to transition to female?

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its true mybe i want transition i dont feel my body belongs to e et feels akward and sometimes i want to cut my genitals, i have to much ensyme error i have gilbert syndrome, frutcose malbsportion, i also have asd my endroclynologist is dont want to make examination she has a cery bad day yesterday i think
 

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Hi, @aronkiss ,
I had some unusual numbers when they did my baseline testing before starting HRT. My estradiol level was 89 pg/ml and my testosterone level was 143 ng/dl. For a normal male, the estradiol number is quite high and the testosterone level was quite low. Because I was fertile and had several children, they wouldn't do any karyotype or genetic testing because they just assume if you're fertile you can't be intersex.

I also always knew that I was female and struggled with desires to harm or remove my genitals. I even attempted damaging my genitals once in the hopes that they would have to surgically remove them. All I managed to do was inflict a lot of pain on myself.

It does seem a bit odd to be making high levels of both hormones. Estradiol tends to inhibit testosterone production. Your doctor should examine this further.
 
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aronkiss

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i also want to my genitals but i dont do nothing dangerous but i made some scratch in my chest , my endrocrynologist made a overdose supression test with dexhamethasone but nothing abnormal showed up
 

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The desire to destroy my genitals never really went away until I started HRT. I still want my genitals fixed (GCS), but HRT really reduces the desire to destroy my genitals a lot. I am not sure exactly how that happened, but I suspect not having erections anymore helped a lot. That was the worst dysphoria trigger for me.

I don’t know if I am actually intersex since my doctor won’t do any tests, but the struggle of feeling like you’ve had to live a life that isn’t you is terrible.

I hope you and your doctors can find a solution that works for you.
 

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yeah when i has an erection i almost must release every time the pressure buti dont want to :( it makes me fustrated sad and very angry

and after it makes me feel very bad and after that i want to crush something
 

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yeah when i has an erection i almost must release every time the pressure buti dont want to :( it makes me fustrated sad and very angry

and after it makes me feel very bad and after that i want to crush something
I know exactly how that feels. I don't miss it at all.
 
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