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Heidi's life story

HeidiJ

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Heidi's life story was bad and came out good at the end.First,I grew up with parents that were drug and alcohol users at parties leaving me at home most of the time with a friend of theirs.The living conditions were bad,all I had were hand me down clothes.Good news was when I was removed from the home,neighbor called CPS on my bio parents.They didn't want to change their ways at all and judge found them unfit parents of me with me put in foster homes.The last foster home I was in,a couple they knew saw potential in me and contacted the social worker I had to adopt me.I was happy finally knowing they were not like my bio parents,their house was full of love and still is.Let me be me too.I was 7 years old when this happened.Exciting day was two weeks before Christmas and I say it was the best early Christmas gift I got,the adoption was final.During the adoption process,mom left a bag of girl's clothes out open and she was outside.I was curious and pulled out a black dress out.Went in my room and closed the door taking my clothes off and tried the dress on.I loved it and it was comfortable to wear.She noticed it missing and knew where to look seeing I was wearing it.I didn't even attempt to give it up and she was good about it.Mom and dad figured out I liked wearing girl's clothes right away.This was March of 1986.Dressed at home most of the time at first.First time I got my ears pierced was when I was 13 and loved it.Age 12,my first love of wearing pantyhose for the first time.Loved the feel of it against my legs.Then it was stockings when I was 17.During high school,I dreamed of being one of the girls one day.First time out as Heidi was at age 16,was with a couple of my female friends and it went good.At the same time I wanted to be like them in my own way,it was part time at first.Age 27,I looked at my male wardrobe finding it boring to wear and wanted to go fulltime dressing as Heidi.Shopping in guy mode was hard and decided to put them in boxes getting rid of it.Came out that I was living and dressing as Heidi fulltime.I always liked the female wardrobe and shoes better,It has been easier to shop for female clothing and shoes for me.It came out good,Family accepted it and and my last ex GF left me.A month into being fulltime,met my current wife Jackie at a nail salon.We were beside at a booth where we were having our nails done.With me not looking,she dropped a piece of paper with her phone number on it in my purse.I figured out she liked me and called her,she was happy that I called her.It was love after that,said I was her dream guy being very feminine looking great dressed as female.Her support was shown and still is.The hurdle at first was with her dad when we first started dating.He didn't like it at all.Good thing was her mom and two younger brother were supportive of us dating right away.It took time for him to accept Jackie and I were happy together learning his lesson.Jackie and I have been married for 11 years now and seen like any normal couple so far.
 

Linde

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Heidi, your storry is sure unusual, and the first years of your life were sad ones.
The young woman who lives with me, and who is like my daughter calls her birth mother her biohazard mother, because she also did all kind of drugs known to mankind.

What is also amazing with you is that you like yo live like a female, but want to stay to be a man.
I was made into a man, but that did not work out well in the long range, and I am now a happy woman.

Hugs
Linde
 

OzGirl

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You were mostly lucky through your life to have support. My Mother knew I was trans, but made me promise never to let anyone else know when I was 7 years old. She knew if my alcoholic father found out he would throw me out. I had no sisters and no access to girls clothes, and I shared a bedroom with an older brother. It was hell, and I knew it was dangerous when the gay boy across the street was kicked to death in front of 20 witnesses and when the police came, nobody saw anything. There was another trans kid in my street, and he was locked away in a small room until he escaped when he was 18. I lived 100 yards from him for 18 years and had never seen him. I got a job as a diesel mechanic, and I knew if the other mechanics ever found out I would be kicked out or worse. I married and had 2 children, but she said I made her feel inadequate as a mother because I did everything much better than her, so she left me to raise 2 small children on my own. I worked such long hours there was still no opportunity to be myself, until my kids were in their 20's and living on their own. Finally, at nearly 50 years old I had some opportunity to be myself, and I married my best friend, who agreed I could be myself at home. I was 65 before I took my first step outside as a woman.

My life circumstances prevented me from being myself for most of my life, so I really envy others who get that opportunity!

Hugs,

Allie
 

HeidiJ

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It was sad,my bio parents didn't want to to me let me be me too.I ended up with health problems as well which my current parents had me checked out,my bio dad smoked a lot and was referred to an allergy specialist which I was found to be very allergic to cigarette smoke.I always liked the female wardrobe more.I also have a younger sister,Amanda whom is adopted as well,I was 9 years old at the time and she was 8 years old.She is supportive as well and says I am a postive role model.Said I helped her come out about herself,came out as bisexual at age 17
 

Confused

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Hi Heidi,
I am glad you have so much support from your family, though you had a really rough start. I tried cross dressing and tucking as a teenager, but never got caught. Much like Allie, it was made pretty clear to me what could happen if you appeared or acted different from the other "boys" I also had to "man up" and take on very "manly" jobs. I even managed to do quite well at them, but never felt quite right in the roles I played.

Hugs,
Mike
 

Linde

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Life plays unusual stories.
My parents were hoping I would be a girl, and the first 6 years of my life I lived as a girl. After that society, in the form of school required me to live as the gender I was made into.
I did not have any trans feelings, because my brain lived in the right body, the body was just misused.
I really tried very hard to be a guy, but fell short in almost every aspect of it.
I think my parents would have been delighted to support any trans feminine aspects of me.
But as Kenna feels, I was a trans man, and when I became a woman, I did not transition, but detransition back into my real gender.

I like this train of thought, I just wish it would have happened earlier in my life.

Hugs
Linde
 

HeidiJ

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I knew I was happy as male but like wearing women's clothes all day 24/7 including the shoes.Describe myself as a feminine male that became a beautiful female
 

LADY SARAH

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My bio father tried to kill me when I was 3 months old. The State put me up for adoption when I got out of the hospital. I found out they told my mother I was dead. My adoptive mother was a monster. My adoptive father was an enabler to that monster. Juvenile Hall was like being in a country club compared to living with them. Then I got put in Foster care until after I graduated high school. Yeah. You could say I know what it's like to not have a childhood or love when I needed it most.

I'm glad you got out of your bad situation.
 

HeidiJ

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My sister and I did something good back a couple years ago for their anniversary present.Knew we were both put in a loving home by them adopting us.Wrote a letter thanking them for what they did to us changing our lives around and then playing this Alabama song knowing they have been angels looking above us.They loved it with us hugging and reminded us they got us out of a bad situation
 

HeidiJ

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Great friends in my life too,they have always liked Heidi more.Growing up,they saw me as one of the girls and knew one day I was going to stop dressing and living as my male side.My friends Kelly and Cassie,they remember me trying on their cheerleading uniforms in high school.Included me going to the prom dressed as Heidi my senior year,principal was on my butt about it and outsmarted him.Never caught me coming in
 
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