Madrhode
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Day 10/60
I am not posting blogs on zoom days as I prefer to give my updates in person. What can I say I am a mistress of suspense! So this is where we are. I still can not talk out loud as today is my nieces birthday and we do not want to ruin it for her. We have not really talked, but we do have a house in Houston waiting for us to move to and we can stay there for atleast the next four years as my niece goes through High school. It is just sad because we will have to pull her out of school at the very last few weeks of school. It is sad because I promised her I would do what I could to not move from this place as she has moved five times in four years, I have always kept my promises to her, but we can not stop this. So I will take off the middle of February and we are renting a pod or two that my brother and I can spend the two weeks before surgery loading all our furniture then they can store it for a month down there until we move. Then when we move we can work on unloading everything. So we have that ready.
Surgery front it is less then a month until my preop appointment on the ninth of February. I can not believe it is so close to happening. God I can already feel baby girl even though baby girl has yet to come into the world. My sister was weirded out when I told her that cases of pooping from the vagina has happened. I am almost caught up on supplies. What makes it great is my grandma has offered if I need it to cover the four hundred dollars I need for surgery if what I have to move. What makes it great is that my gandmother is well I hate to say it racists as hell. She claims to be christian and was happy when I became a minster at 22 even though I was only a rolling minister and that came as a fluke. I did it to marry two friends, but my trainer that trained me to drive semi trucks mentored me and eventually, I fully credited with the time and study for the truckers churches. Yet I did not agreewith it, eventually I stopped with the truckers church when I recommited to transition and actually joined the satanic temple. LMAO, I actually do everything now, star trek wedding, dnd wedding, satanic wedding. Ill do any wedding that does not involve marrying the dead, children, animals, or plants. So that is my extent of ministry and regular weddings. OK so I went far off topic (Squirrel) Back to Grandma, she asked me what I thought of the riots in DC and then got mad when I told her arrest everyone of them including, Trump, Giuliani, and T. Jr. and the rioters should be charged with insurrection and murder as those involved in a crime that leads to a murder, is also guilty of that murder and I say five murders happened especially the capital police. Well that was not the answer she wanted. I told her I am sorry, but I will never agree with you, you say you are christian and a good person, but you do treat your nurses like,crap talking about they are all african and they do not know how to nurse. She just was upset with me, then she cried and hung up and then she called back saying lets not talk politics and she loved ,e. I know on one level it is wrong, but I will stay talking till I do not need her money maybe for surgery, then I think I am cutting ties, I hate being associated with my step uncle and I I really can not stand knowing my grandmother does not see it. I look at my nieces best friend who is mixed race but I have adopted her too as a niece lol and I look at her and can not believe how people can be so cruel and that grandma's blood is in me too. I would trade grandma for this girl in a heartbeat. That little girl is beautiful.
So surgery is still on and I just can not wait and hoping it will be over. So I can move on to my dream . Going to Schlitterbahn water park and not wearing shorts over my swim suit. I also can not wait to be done with this. I would love to date and then I will be able to give someone what they want a warm place for their head. Whether my chest or there Lmao. Oh well until tomorrow.
Day 10/60 Maddy
I am not posting blogs on zoom days as I prefer to give my updates in person. What can I say I am a mistress of suspense! So this is where we are. I still can not talk out loud as today is my nieces birthday and we do not want to ruin it for her. We have not really talked, but we do have a house in Houston waiting for us to move to and we can stay there for atleast the next four years as my niece goes through High school. It is just sad because we will have to pull her out of school at the very last few weeks of school. It is sad because I promised her I would do what I could to not move from this place as she has moved five times in four years, I have always kept my promises to her, but we can not stop this. So I will take off the middle of February and we are renting a pod or two that my brother and I can spend the two weeks before surgery loading all our furniture then they can store it for a month down there until we move. Then when we move we can work on unloading everything. So we have that ready.
Surgery front it is less then a month until my preop appointment on the ninth of February. I can not believe it is so close to happening. God I can already feel baby girl even though baby girl has yet to come into the world. My sister was weirded out when I told her that cases of pooping from the vagina has happened. I am almost caught up on supplies. What makes it great is my grandma has offered if I need it to cover the four hundred dollars I need for surgery if what I have to move. What makes it great is that my gandmother is well I hate to say it racists as hell. She claims to be christian and was happy when I became a minster at 22 even though I was only a rolling minister and that came as a fluke. I did it to marry two friends, but my trainer that trained me to drive semi trucks mentored me and eventually, I fully credited with the time and study for the truckers churches. Yet I did not agreewith it, eventually I stopped with the truckers church when I recommited to transition and actually joined the satanic temple. LMAO, I actually do everything now, star trek wedding, dnd wedding, satanic wedding. Ill do any wedding that does not involve marrying the dead, children, animals, or plants. So that is my extent of ministry and regular weddings. OK so I went far off topic (Squirrel) Back to Grandma, she asked me what I thought of the riots in DC and then got mad when I told her arrest everyone of them including, Trump, Giuliani, and T. Jr. and the rioters should be charged with insurrection and murder as those involved in a crime that leads to a murder, is also guilty of that murder and I say five murders happened especially the capital police. Well that was not the answer she wanted. I told her I am sorry, but I will never agree with you, you say you are christian and a good person, but you do treat your nurses like,crap talking about they are all african and they do not know how to nurse. She just was upset with me, then she cried and hung up and then she called back saying lets not talk politics and she loved ,e. I know on one level it is wrong, but I will stay talking till I do not need her money maybe for surgery, then I think I am cutting ties, I hate being associated with my step uncle and I I really can not stand knowing my grandmother does not see it. I look at my nieces best friend who is mixed race but I have adopted her too as a niece lol and I look at her and can not believe how people can be so cruel and that grandma's blood is in me too. I would trade grandma for this girl in a heartbeat. That little girl is beautiful.
So surgery is still on and I just can not wait and hoping it will be over. So I can move on to my dream . Going to Schlitterbahn water park and not wearing shorts over my swim suit. I also can not wait to be done with this. I would love to date and then I will be able to give someone what they want a warm place for their head. Whether my chest or there Lmao. Oh well until tomorrow.
Day 10/60 Maddy
